Sometime all I need is the air that I breath

Holy Hell!!!!   What in the world happened? I have had the worst time that I have ever known for the last 7 months...I definitely know that my disease is stronger than ever. However I still am able to pull something out of each day that I am thankful for...no mater how bad things this burnt out piece of meat that resides between my ears tells me it is.

I had another bad reaction to the interferon that was part of my chemo for Hep C and cirrhosis. I was told I could have them for several months, but I had one previous to this one so I should not have any more.At least that's what I thought she said. And oh yea, Its not going to bother me any more so I didn't have to go back for my levels to be checked..Great addict behavior there LOL... It will always get someone else , not me!  Yet .Anyway one of the symptoms of advanced Cirrhosis is that my sick liver starts to make ammonia. For 23 days and nights I knew know one nor where I was at. That was the worst time in my life so far; Horrible scared to death every second of nearly every day.

About the time that was getting better, I was awakened one morning with blood in and dripping out of my mouth!!! Now what is up with this shit???  Comes to find out  Cirrhosis causes varicose veins to form in your esophagus and bulge out and actually burst and if bad enough you hemorrhage to death. They flew me to Nashville to my transplant doc. He put me to sleep and went down my esophagus and put small tiny bands to stop the blood flow to the varicose veins that have formed.   And then one time at band camp>>>>lol   sorry for rambling so much.

Have one more I really need to talk about , My girl friend for the last 3 years started using again, or should i say she just got tired of trying to hide it from me.  We fought all the time and was so broke we could not even pay attention.  I finally got enough Wednesday morning when she cam in the bed room and proceeded to beat the hell out of me with a crutch for going to bed without waking her off the couch first,  This is a big ole mess now , she got my 80 yr. old mother involved by calling over 100 times a day. The law too is involved so everything I own except for 2 pair of jeans and a shirt or 2 is at the apartment and I have to wait till we go to court on the 25th to see what the judge is gonna do.